Broken Mirros, Black Cats & All That Jazz

Isn't car shopping supposed to be fun? Well, its not. Especially when you are under a time crunch. I am just finding it uber stressful. These last 6 months have been FILLED with sadness, frustration and bad luck. Did I break a mirror or something?!
This weekend we spent the whole time looking at vehicle possibilities and searching, driving and then finally being let down. It seems that people are not as honest as I would like them to be. I was seriously bewildered at the amount of scheming going on. We have had to put all our time after work into finding a car because I need to find something to drive ASAP. SO STRESSFUL!

Currently I am on my 8th day of progesterone. One think to note is I have found that my bbs are seriously sore when taking progesterone so I will have to not consider that as a pregnancy symptom the next time around. As if that is what I need...something to make figuring that out harder...

I am scheduled for AF to arrive on the 23rd. Which means hopefully that I will get a positive OPK around May 6th. DH and I are hoping that now since we have given my body a break that we will get lucky. If only the stress in my life would go away and I could relax for once!!

Accident

Yesterday I was in ANOTHER car accident. That is two, count em' TWO in the last 5 months that were completely not my fault.
Yesterday I was in shock and couldn't believe that my poor car was gone. The car I had come to love and drive for years was no more. I was fine, the guy who hit me was fine but it was still sad. |
This morning I woke up feeling rather sore and shaken up. The feeling was almost like after you have worked out for the first time in a long while and you body is in recoup mode and event the slightest movement is uncomfortable.
Today I was driven to the rental car company, got a car, checked in at work and within an hour or so I will be heading out to see my doctor. Tomorrow is the dreaded appointment with ICBC. Ick. They are not fun to deal with.
On top of everything else now I have no car. And the worth of my car is very little even though it was in good condition and drove really well. This means DH and I have to start looking into a new vehicle. Cause we can afford that right? Not. Just when I was starting to think life was setttling down...

On to other news I am on my 6th day of the 90 Day Challenge. One thing I have noticed is more energy. Usually by 2 in the afternoon I could go for a nap and by 8 or 9PM I am ready to hit the pillow. This week through the day I just feel more awake. I also am enjoying how easy it is and how many options there are.
Day two of progesterone as well. Which reminds me I need to go fill my prescription!

Below is a picture of my poor car! Once I unhinged myself from the other vehicle the door was hanging off , pushed in, and the inside of the vehicle was totally mashed up. My dad took one look at it and said "write off". Total bummer.

Success?

I can almost say with an absolutely guarantee that we managed NOT to get pregnant this cycle...unless some divine presence deems it completely necessary (and funny). I got my blaring positive OPK on Saturday and since DH and I have both been so sick we had not BD'd anywhere near that possible time to get pregnant. So I guess we were successful at not getting pregnant this month at planned.

When I logged on to fertility friend and it gave me my odds of being pregnant (pretty much non-existent) as "Low" because of the fact we had not DTD in the window allotted I had to laugh. At least we did something right this time around, lol.

I have started concentrating on my health and currently am almost one week complete on my 90 Day Challenge. Three pounds lighter! Yay! Go me! If I only lose 10 pounds before I get pregnant at least that is 10 pounds lost. And then the challenge will help me to develop healthy habits that will lead to a healthy pregnancy weight gain.
I am blogging about that too so if you want to follow that as well feel free:
http://luvthechallenge.blogspot.ca/

I finally figured out why I was so sick a week and a half ago...Tonsillitis. Bleh. I have some residual effects from it (sore throat, etc) Feeling more and more like myself with every passing day though. And it probably helps with all the proper nutrition I am getting now as well.

I started progesterone last night and feeling a little off today...perhaps it is slightly due to that as well. One thing I am glad about is with the progesterone that means now my AF will happen before I go away the last weekend of the month so I will not have to deal with her then...yippee! Small victory.
And also, if you have noticed I went from ovulating on CD31 to CD18...WOW! Big difference.
Can't wait to see what this next cycle brings!

Called It!

CD17
I wrote down in my day timer that I guessed I would get a positive OPK on the 6th or 7th and today I got my positive! Yay! That means my cycles are regulating...hooray for the progesterone! *Cue the song... *Celebraaaaation...we're gonna celebrate and have a good time!*
DH was so cute yesterday he was like, "I would like to request to DTD tomorrow." lol. And I of course said sure...and now we know we can...but we have to be careful and find where we stored those rubbers! lol
I am just so happy that my cycles are getting back to normal. May conception here we come!

Playing It Safe

DH and I will be using condoms from now until I ovulate. Yay? We made a decision and are sticking to it.
Since I have been through the mother of colds I have really not felt up to anything. We both haven't. I have had an abundance of wet and EWCM so I am not sure if that is a direct result of the progesterone on my system from last cycle or what.

Because I am not pregnant I start my 90 Day Challenge on Monday. That way if we get preggo mid May at least I will have some loss by then...hopefully...three of my friends have had amazing results and my MIL just decided to join me for the challenge. Should make for a fun 90 days!

DH and I will not be going up to the cabin for this long weekend and I think he is very sad...I for one am looking forward to cleaning the house and getting everything in tip top shape. The reason we are not going is his best friends son just broke his leg and "C" is concerned that she will not be able to keep a good eye on him there. Oh well...there is always another long weekend. I am still taking the full days off work though. Why not? I had to ask for it in advance months ago so I might as well enjoy the extra day. DH happens to be off those days as well so it will be fun just the two of us hanging out and chilling.

I wonder when I will ovulate this cycle...it will be really interesting to see what effect the progesterone had on this cycle!

A Different Kind Of Journey

I am an observer. In high school that is pretty much how I stayed out of trouble. While some of my friends were making poor choices drinking, sleeping with boys, experimenting with drugs, shoplifting, etc, I was watching. I was waiting to see what kind of results or consequences were brought on and then formed what I liked to consider my own educated opinion. My parents were lucky. I made high honors in grades, was involved in sports and leadership groups, had an after school job and was put up as an example by teachers while still remaining on good terms with my peers. Granted, there are things that, oh man...if I knew what I knew now, would sure have made a difference... But nevertheless it is what it is and I was glad to get out of high school with very minor emotional bumps and bruises.

One of the things I wish I could have told myself is how so NOT fat I was. I look back at pictures and remember that I fit into a size 4 most times and was a size 6 for my grad dress....and yet...I felt fat all the time. Not enough to push myself into anything self sabotaging like an eating disorder but as a adolescent I sure remember those thoughts. Today I look back at those pictures and shake my head. What I wouldn't give to have a tiny body like that again. But years, surgeries, stress, a body that has prepared itself for pregnancy twice and other things have made that tiny body a thing of the past. When I met DH I had just recently broken up with my ex and had started running, eating meal replacement shakes and making healthier choices. I was at my prime. I do not think I ever looked better..I also had time as I was conveniently living at home and unemployed. Give me a break, it was over four years ago, I was only 22!

Before our wedding and about a year before that I started gaining back the weight. (Fabulous timing right?)But there was something wrong with my body. I felt sick every time I ate and had stomach pain and felt bloated pretty much 24/7 for about two years. In July about a month and a half before our wedding I had emergency surgery for a seriously infected and inflamed gall bladder. I had (according to the ultrasound tech) many stones documented every time I went into the ER in the past years but was never told about it until that last time when I was rushed into surgery because it was so bad. After being on bed rest for a week, about two months later DH and I started noticing a change. I was losing wight without doing anything different...my body was trying to get back to what it considered normal. Now however, I am stuck trying to lose those last 15 pounds. That is where the observations come in...

I am not one to fall into fads without some research. DH and I attended a Mona vie thing a while ago at the request of the friend and I had to do all I could to keep DH from getting up and walking out the door. I felt it was at least polite to sit through the presentation even though we knew it was not something we wanted to take part in. They were good friends and that is why we went. I have been looking into my options as to which route I wanted to take to lose that last bit for a little while. As DH not so kindly put last night I tend to start new things all the time that never seem to work. In my defence ...how do you know if they work if you do not try..? This leads me to my most recent research. A couple girls that I know (yes KNOW... Not a "friend of a friend". I know these girls, see them, etc) have lost a significant amount of weight on a new program. Two out of the three have lost just over 10 pounds in a month while the other has achieved a high weight loss for her body size/type as well (which is a smaller frame). Not only that but their husbands got involved after seeing that and now their husbands have started losing wight or bulking up (another option of the program). That is where the 90 Day Challenge and Body By Vi comes in. The ultimate reason why I am thinking of starting this is I did not want to start something that I would have to potentially stop in a month if I got pregnant. I needed it to be super safe even if I was pregnant. And this totally is. In fact one of the girls was pregnant while she was on the challenge and chose it for that specific reason as well.

The 90 Day Challenge and Body By Vi is basically a shake diet/lifestyle with exercise worked in. Now...it is not shakes that bother me. I can do shakes. It is the moment when I can taste the chalky/icky/blehness of the powder in the shakes that I get really turned off. Also...I love food. And the fact that I can continue to have whatever I want for dinner which will not change anything at home! I eat breakfast and lunch at work/alone anyways so DH will not have to suffer for my curiosity! lol. I lose weight and he still gets steak, potatoes, rice, and pasta cooked for him every night (and I get to eat it too!) Pretty much the only reason I am so open to this is I am seeing first hand the success of my friends and how much happier they are. How they not only FEEL better but look great as well.

As I have not tasted the product (which I hear makes the shakes taste like you are drinking an actual milkshake...yumm) yet I am going over to a friends house to try it out and then will go from there. I am cautiously optimistic. If those girls can make it happen and they are moms and career women with the same time/issues that I have why wouldn't it work for me?!  Has anyone else done this? If so what were your experiences with it? If it is something I decide to do I will keep you updated and informed.

*Sniff*Sneeze*Cough*Sigh*

The plague has descended upon our household. Ok...well...maybe not the plague but I definitely feel like death warmed up. All last week I had major migraines on and off that made me nauseous and then friday morning...WHAM...it all hit me like a ton of bricks. I spent this weekend going through boxes of kleenex, extra strength Tylenol and cough syrup. It was not a pretty sight. I think that would have been fine except DH was sick too. So...basically nothing has gotten done for the last week. I managed to get a couple loads of laundry and some dishes done yesterday but that was it.

Because of the above my temps have been less then accurate. Although I pretty much have resigned myself to the fact that temps for as long as I will be taking progesterone will be something I can not count on as a fertility aid.

We were supposed to be going up to this cabin this long weekend but the friends we were going with are no longer going and now we feel we should probably stay home and work on the house. The painting process was pretty much finished this weekend...all there is left to do is two walls. Most of the rest is outdoor stuff....which takes nice weather...which...we have not been getting much of. In fact....it snowed saturday night. Not exactly landscaping weather...

Currently I am sitting at work dreaming of when I use to have sick pay. I no longer have that at this job and so here I sick hacking, sneezing and silently moaning. I have a feeling it is going to be a long 9 hours...Bummer.