CD11
Today is my first acupuncture session. Ack! There is just something about the thought of dozens of tiny needles being stabbed in you that makes a person go..."and WHY am I doing this?" But hey...if it can help in any way without me having to take any more medication I am in!
I also have an interview today. This place is actually like 65 seconds from where I currently work...awkward..lol.
Other then that not much more to report today. I started taking OPKs yesterday and they are still pretty faint. Usually I ovulate around the new or full moon depending on how my cycle falls and that would be the 4th of June. So I am not really expecting a positive OPK until Sunday. Monday or Tuesday. Just waiting it out as of now.
Thursday, 31 May 2012
Wednesday, 30 May 2012
Life Goes On
CD10
My baby sister graduates today. It is sort of surreal. When did I get this old?! My own graduation feels like it was lightyears ago. It is so strange how in the moment life just seems to creep by but looking back the past flies by in the blink of an eye.
Last night I got the pics for our house to go up on the listing and I am impressed. I told DH the beautiful pics almost made me want to stay, lol. He did not look impressed....especially since I have been the one so gung-ho to leave. Wanna buy our house? lol
My baby sister graduates today. It is sort of surreal. When did I get this old?! My own graduation feels like it was lightyears ago. It is so strange how in the moment life just seems to creep by but looking back the past flies by in the blink of an eye.
Last night I got the pics for our house to go up on the listing and I am impressed. I told DH the beautiful pics almost made me want to stay, lol. He did not look impressed....especially since I have been the one so gung-ho to leave. Wanna buy our house? lol
I think the photographer did a fantastic job!
Three more sleeps until our BDathon. DH can hardly wait to up his coffee intake and crack open a beer. I test the day before father's day. If I test positive I can tell DH on father's day and he can share the news with our dads as well.
It will really confuse/upset me if we are not able to do it this cycle. I know my body has been under a lot of stress due to the accidents but with everything we are doing, restrictions we have put in place and strategic BD schedule I really do not know what more we could do!
Tuesday, 29 May 2012
Astonishing Findings
Let me just say this BLEW my mind. Again...this is one of these moments where I was like..."Why the hell didn't anyone TELL me this!?!?".
Drum roll please.....
Did you know that peas (yes peas...those cute little healthy additions to a meal) are a natural contraceptive? Take a moment and let that sink in. If you do not eat your veggies..this is one moment to be proud. But DH and I happen to LOVE our green veggies...peas being one of those. We pretty much alternate between peas, corn and green beans for dinner and sometimes lunches (leftovers, Mmmm)
Studies have shown that a natural chemical/compound (m-xylohydroquinone) found in peas acts like a natural birth control –particularly in men – and can actually greatly reduce pregnancy rates. This compound is being studied at an increasing rate. Men and women also concerned with fertility should note that rhubabrb also falls within the infertility food category.
Genistein, the most potent isoflavone, is found in legumes, and so soy foods, peas, peanuts, chick peas, and fava beans have been researched to negatively influence fertility. Historically, pomegranate, rhubarb, licorice, and the herbs black cohosh and Queen Anne’s Lace have been used to reduce fertility as well.
Whoa. Can anyone else say diet change?
Drum roll please.....
Did you know that peas (yes peas...those cute little healthy additions to a meal) are a natural contraceptive? Take a moment and let that sink in. If you do not eat your veggies..this is one moment to be proud. But DH and I happen to LOVE our green veggies...peas being one of those. We pretty much alternate between peas, corn and green beans for dinner and sometimes lunches (leftovers, Mmmm)
Studies have shown that a natural chemical/compound (m-xylohydroquinone) found in peas acts like a natural birth control –particularly in men – and can actually greatly reduce pregnancy rates. This compound is being studied at an increasing rate. Men and women also concerned with fertility should note that rhubabrb also falls within the infertility food category.
Genistein, the most potent isoflavone, is found in legumes, and so soy foods, peas, peanuts, chick peas, and fava beans have been researched to negatively influence fertility. Historically, pomegranate, rhubarb, licorice, and the herbs black cohosh and Queen Anne’s Lace have been used to reduce fertility as well.
Whoa. Can anyone else say diet change?
Monday, 28 May 2012
If You Can't Beat It...Control It
Shoot - I forgot to temp this morning! Darn you lax attempt at TTC!!!
My OPKs, HPTs and Softcups should arrive at my US mailbox on thursday. Thankfully I have three OPKs left so I can start taking them Wednesday morning which will be CD10. I will be taking my OPKs in the morning at about 6AM and afternoon at about 4:30PM...I am NOT missing that crazy short surge!
BDing will commence this Sat. DH is well aware of a set BD schedule of SAT AM, SUN NOON, MON AM, TUES PM. I go for acupuncture this Thursday and next Monday. I expect to ovulate next Monday.
As you see above this will be my first cycle with acupuncture and softcups. DH and I are pulling out all the stops. BDing is supposed to be more effective in the morning so I have adjusted our schedule to accommodate that. I am SO THANKFUL that this BDathon is happening over a weekend because it makes it much easier to plan and execute.
I have started to think that I ovulate within a couple hours of my positive OPK and that I have a very short egg lifespan because we are doing everything perfect...so all else leads me to believe our timing was just off. So I went back to my Nov chart when we conceived the second time I noticed that I ovulated that day of my positive OPK and we had BD "accidentally" a few days before that which leads me to believe that was the particular moment that got us preggo. All speculation, but at this point that is really all I have. And...ever the planner and control freak that I am...I need that schedule of what to do when. I feel so helpless in this process that making some sort of plan at least makes me feel somewhat in charge of my body.
Today is a busy busy busy day! We have another house showing..a photographer is coming over to take photos of the house for MLS...we go visit Nana in her new care home ...I attend another specialist appointment and then dinner with DH's best friend who is only in town for a couple days. Whew. Might as well get all this craziness in now..I want to be completely zen this weekend!
My OPKs, HPTs and Softcups should arrive at my US mailbox on thursday. Thankfully I have three OPKs left so I can start taking them Wednesday morning which will be CD10. I will be taking my OPKs in the morning at about 6AM and afternoon at about 4:30PM...I am NOT missing that crazy short surge!
BDing will commence this Sat. DH is well aware of a set BD schedule of SAT AM, SUN NOON, MON AM, TUES PM. I go for acupuncture this Thursday and next Monday. I expect to ovulate next Monday.
As you see above this will be my first cycle with acupuncture and softcups. DH and I are pulling out all the stops. BDing is supposed to be more effective in the morning so I have adjusted our schedule to accommodate that. I am SO THANKFUL that this BDathon is happening over a weekend because it makes it much easier to plan and execute.
I have started to think that I ovulate within a couple hours of my positive OPK and that I have a very short egg lifespan because we are doing everything perfect...so all else leads me to believe our timing was just off. So I went back to my Nov chart when we conceived the second time I noticed that I ovulated that day of my positive OPK and we had BD "accidentally" a few days before that which leads me to believe that was the particular moment that got us preggo. All speculation, but at this point that is really all I have. And...ever the planner and control freak that I am...I need that schedule of what to do when. I feel so helpless in this process that making some sort of plan at least makes me feel somewhat in charge of my body.
Today is a busy busy busy day! We have another house showing..a photographer is coming over to take photos of the house for MLS...we go visit Nana in her new care home ...I attend another specialist appointment and then dinner with DH's best friend who is only in town for a couple days. Whew. Might as well get all this craziness in now..I want to be completely zen this weekend!
Friday, 25 May 2012
Thoughts & Preparations
You know how I said I would never wish what I was going through on anyone? ...That hasn't changed...well ok..I guess it has changed a little bit. A part of me wishes what I am going through was standard in TTC so that I didn't feel so alone at times.
I have to say I will be a little more cautious about when that times comes with my future daughter and birth control. I really think my time on depraprovera is playing a huge part into why we cannot get pregnant today. I mean...you can only stall the inevitable for some long before the body starts to adapt. Birth control was really great for when I needed it. It sure did its job...but if I could go back and change my decision...I would...who knows if the outcome would be better but at least I would feel like I didn't hurt my chances.
The showings for the house have started to pile in! Two today and one tomorrow and that was all requested within one day! Crossing my fingers that we get an offer soon so we can concentrate on packing up and moving on to something bigger and better.
One week from tomorrow we start trying again. That seems really soon! Until then I have started prepping. I ordered some more OPKs and HPTs, started taking my prenatals again (forgot for the last couple days...AF is sorta depressing), started drinking my hot green tea lemon water with honey, Am starting to watch what I eat and concentrate on the fertility diet and TRYING to de-stress.
A big shout out to Angie as she didn't get her BFP this cycle either. I'm with you hun, fingers crossed for our next one!
*ETA (Edited To Add)*
Can I just say I have an immense HATE for people who say "Stop trying and it will just happen!" Seriously...how condesending and widely insensitive can you BE!? For some people it is just NOT THAT EASY. For example...if I were to say "stop trying" and get pregnant again and not have known I need to take prometrium to hold a pregnancy, I would probably continue to miscarry for the rest of my life. I understand what you are attemping to say but back up and check yourself for a moment. My blood type, progesterone levels, lutal phase defect and other situations I have been informed of in my adventures of TTC have all been things that medically I should be watching and keeping in mind as I am on this journey. So no...I cannot just "stop trying". Educate yourself and then come talk to me about the hell I am going through.
End of rant.
I have to say I will be a little more cautious about when that times comes with my future daughter and birth control. I really think my time on depraprovera is playing a huge part into why we cannot get pregnant today. I mean...you can only stall the inevitable for some long before the body starts to adapt. Birth control was really great for when I needed it. It sure did its job...but if I could go back and change my decision...I would...who knows if the outcome would be better but at least I would feel like I didn't hurt my chances.
The showings for the house have started to pile in! Two today and one tomorrow and that was all requested within one day! Crossing my fingers that we get an offer soon so we can concentrate on packing up and moving on to something bigger and better.
One week from tomorrow we start trying again. That seems really soon! Until then I have started prepping. I ordered some more OPKs and HPTs, started taking my prenatals again (forgot for the last couple days...AF is sorta depressing), started drinking my hot green tea lemon water with honey, Am starting to watch what I eat and concentrate on the fertility diet and TRYING to de-stress.
A big shout out to Angie as she didn't get her BFP this cycle either. I'm with you hun, fingers crossed for our next one!
*ETA (Edited To Add)*
Can I just say I have an immense HATE for people who say "Stop trying and it will just happen!" Seriously...how condesending and widely insensitive can you BE!? For some people it is just NOT THAT EASY. For example...if I were to say "stop trying" and get pregnant again and not have known I need to take prometrium to hold a pregnancy, I would probably continue to miscarry for the rest of my life. I understand what you are attemping to say but back up and check yourself for a moment. My blood type, progesterone levels, lutal phase defect and other situations I have been informed of in my adventures of TTC have all been things that medically I should be watching and keeping in mind as I am on this journey. So no...I cannot just "stop trying". Educate yourself and then come talk to me about the hell I am going through.
End of rant.
Thursday, 24 May 2012
Good News For Once
I forgot to update saying that I found out from my hospital visit that the lump diagnosis does not involve cancer at this time.
That is a load off my mind! As for what they THINK it might be the ideas tossed around were:
1. Blood disorder
2. Infection
3. Stress Induced (What? Me? Stressed? Nah)
4. TMJ inflamation
I am supposed to watch it carefully to see if it gets more painful, grows or hardens. The spots and dizziness/blurriness are still there at times and I get really bad headaches on that side now but at least I can rest easy with this new news. DH was so relieved I could see it in his eyes. I do not think either of us could have handled a diagnosis of cancer. Now THAT would have been rock bottom...
I took a large amount of anti-inflamitories the day I went to the hospital and the pain and size has gone down some but it is still there. I am hoping it will take care of itself as mysteriously as it came.
That is a load off my mind! As for what they THINK it might be the ideas tossed around were:
1. Blood disorder
2. Infection
3. Stress Induced (What? Me? Stressed? Nah)
4. TMJ inflamation
I am supposed to watch it carefully to see if it gets more painful, grows or hardens. The spots and dizziness/blurriness are still there at times and I get really bad headaches on that side now but at least I can rest easy with this new news. DH was so relieved I could see it in his eyes. I do not think either of us could have handled a diagnosis of cancer. Now THAT would have been rock bottom...
I took a large amount of anti-inflamitories the day I went to the hospital and the pain and size has gone down some but it is still there. I am hoping it will take care of itself as mysteriously as it came.
Wait It Out
For once a week has just flown by. Usually if AF is involved it tends to drag but she is packing her bags tomorrow!
So, what do we know about my cycles now with Prometrium...well...I am a royal b*tch, my bbs ache, enlarge and get really veiny, I am fatigued and sleep like a baby. Oh, and I get dizzy spells and gas, lol. So basically anything that would lead me to a suspicion of pregnancy with symptoms I get with the meds. Fabulous. As if I needed more of a guessing game...
I started looking into acupuncture for fertility and set up an appointment with a Dr just out of town. The appointments are expensive...about $100 with subsequent visits being $50 but it can't hurt at this point. I am under so much stress as it is I guess getting my "chi" in line wouldn't be such a bad thing. I am not a fan of needles but after all the blood work and being prodded and pincushioned at the hospital what are a few more?
Tonight DH and I go look at some more houses and today is pay day, YAY! This weekend we were invited over to a UFC party. DH will probably go but I am not really in any mood to socialise. I may just grab a tub of Ben and Jerrys or some cheesecake and veg to a chick flick.
Sunday I have a wedding shower for my most favourite cousin in the world. So excited for her...it should be fun...actually looking forward to that one!
Now...if only there were a way to avoid all these baby showers coming up....I really hate to be a "Debbie Downer" but pregnancy and babies is still a sore spot. I know I can't avoid all my friends/co-workers who are pregnant and their children-to-be for very much longer but I will buy all the time I can get. It has been less then 5 months since our second loss and I am still trying to adjust to all the announcements around me and it is my hope that these women in my life will attempt to be understanding. If time is what it takes I am still waiting for that constant ache to become a more tolerable one. I just hope that I have not destroyed valued friendships in the meantime...
So, what do we know about my cycles now with Prometrium...well...I am a royal b*tch, my bbs ache, enlarge and get really veiny, I am fatigued and sleep like a baby. Oh, and I get dizzy spells and gas, lol. So basically anything that would lead me to a suspicion of pregnancy with symptoms I get with the meds. Fabulous. As if I needed more of a guessing game...
I started looking into acupuncture for fertility and set up an appointment with a Dr just out of town. The appointments are expensive...about $100 with subsequent visits being $50 but it can't hurt at this point. I am under so much stress as it is I guess getting my "chi" in line wouldn't be such a bad thing. I am not a fan of needles but after all the blood work and being prodded and pincushioned at the hospital what are a few more?
Tonight DH and I go look at some more houses and today is pay day, YAY! This weekend we were invited over to a UFC party. DH will probably go but I am not really in any mood to socialise. I may just grab a tub of Ben and Jerrys or some cheesecake and veg to a chick flick.
Sunday I have a wedding shower for my most favourite cousin in the world. So excited for her...it should be fun...actually looking forward to that one!
Now...if only there were a way to avoid all these baby showers coming up....I really hate to be a "Debbie Downer" but pregnancy and babies is still a sore spot. I know I can't avoid all my friends/co-workers who are pregnant and their children-to-be for very much longer but I will buy all the time I can get. It has been less then 5 months since our second loss and I am still trying to adjust to all the announcements around me and it is my hope that these women in my life will attempt to be understanding. If time is what it takes I am still waiting for that constant ache to become a more tolerable one. I just hope that I have not destroyed valued friendships in the meantime...
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