I spent Sunday in the ER because I was bleeding and having contractions and thought my water might have broken. Much testing and many ultrasounds later and I was told everything was fine. I even went in to my specialists office this morning and he took another look and did another exam and said everything looked perfect.
I was just starting to breath easy when the phone rang right before dinner. It was my specialist calling after hours. I immediately knew something was wrong...there would be no reason for him to call that late unless there was.
DH and I had blood testing done for abnormalities and this was the call we were dreading. I have been told we have a 1 in 5 chance that the baby has down syndrome or a possible life threatening disease. We are devastated. My doctor recommended an amniocentesis. I will get a call tomorrow letting me know when the testing will be done. Probably some time this week as I have been told it needs to happen ASAP. I am so not looking forward to them shoving a gigantic needle through my stomach.
Because of this I had to call DH and ask him to come home. He is away on a hunting trip and if I am going to get this procedure done I want him by my side. I feel just awful and guilty about asking him to come home but I do not think I could do this without him.
I feel like I have not been able to enjoy this pregnancy at all. Just as I am able to ...WHAM...I get news like this. This is something DH and I want so badly and I just think it is all so unfair. It makes no sense.
I am nervous about the testing and the risks it brings. I want to be happy and excited in this pregnancy so badly. Sometimes life sucks. Today sucked. Royally sucked.
I'm so sorry :( those tests have a huge false positive rate and I am praying you fall into that category. Praying...big hugs.
ReplyDeleteLife is so unfair sometimes. But you know we love you so much and are praying for you. And keep thinking positive until you have a reason to think otherwise. We are with you and support you 100 per cent. Big giant hugs, and shoulders too.
ReplyDeleteYes! They do have a huge false positive rate! I'm praying for you that you'll finally catch a break and get to enjoy your pregnancy!
ReplyDeleteHow are you doing? I've been thinking about you and sending lots of prayers!
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