Hello CD8!
Today I start my OPKs! I have one last one left at home and then will have to drive to cross to border and get some more in the US at my mail box where the package is waiting for me along with my PH testers. I was curious as to what my body is sitting at for a PH level so I bought some strips. One thing I recently learnt is that lemons although acidic when eaten are the number one alkaline forming food once ingested. Interesting.
Today we also list the house. AND we got some really GREAT news just before I left on Friday..we are approved for a larger mortgage on just DH's income so even if I get laid off there is no impact on us finding a new home. Hooray! We can finally move on in our life!
The weekend away was awesome. Really relaxed and I got to spend a lot of time with my mom, sister and Aunt. There were a lot of laughs. At one point in time during the seminar I have to admit I burst into tears when the women leading it started talking about how she was going to be a grandma and how she was told and how big the baby is measuring and on and on. I was doing fine until suddenly I was not. And burst into tears in a room of about 75 other women. Awkward. I sure miss the days when I wasn't this emotional.
DH and I are really looking forward to starting the BD again. I cannot believe tomorrow is May 1st!! Yay...May is finally here!! I really hope I have some good news to post on the 19th...which is my POAS day...granted that I ovulate around CD18. The progesterone has been working so far so here is to hoping...and praying..and wishing...!
Monday, 30 April 2012
Friday, 27 April 2012
Waiting Room Woes
Just the sheer thought of a doctors office does not bring joy into my heart. Don't get me wrong...I LOVE my doctor. He is sweet and kind and listens. He actually cares.
Yesterday I went to the doctors office to get more pain medication, update him on my fertility treatments and plans and to do a follow up on the accident I was in. When I first walked in the door that should have been my first clue to run...run very far. The place was packed. And then I find out that their phones and internet was down which meant they had to do everything in writting. When I got there some people had already been waiting an hour and a half. So I sit down and wait...and wait...and WAIT some more. Then when my name is finally called I get walked as far as the hallway and the doctor rushes out of a room and says to call 911. Apparently someone was having a seizure or something while in the room with the doctor and now needed to get to the hospital ASAP. I fianlly get into the doctor, we talk, I get my referrals to a back specialist and pain medication and am on my way...THREE HOURS LATER. By this time I have already had to call and cancel my physio and massage appointments.
You think that is bad...oh wait...I have not even told you the worst part yet. The part where I burst into tears in the waiting room. Yup, totally did.
There was a girl/woman about my age sitting across from me very jittery, etc the whole time. She looked pretty nervous and was with someone who looked to be either family (aunt/older sister) or a friend. She goes in and comes out in tears. Shaking. And then the madness starts. She is standing in the middle of the waiting room crying saying...(wait for it....) "But I don't want a baby! This is awful..why is this happening to ME? This is the worst day of my life." Cue the tears on my part. Inside I am raging. I was very close to hitting her...but that would not have been very nice as she was pregnant...(haha). Here I am...waiting to talk to the doctor about my fertility treatments, the medication I am on for the accident and how I have to make a choice between that or trying, my updates on my cycles, etc and she has the NERVE to say being pregnant constituted the worst day of her life!? Thankfully I did not have to deal with it for very long before the person she was with ushered her out of the clinic. Even so..I think her words will haunt me for some time.
DH ending up coming home late from work and I got through telling him about my day fine until it hit that story and again I was in tears. Sometimes I really feel as if I am being punished...for what..I don't know...but some of the experiences I have had in the last couple months sure are not full of luck. This process is exhuasting and I do not know how much more I can take. I see girls who have been at this a year..two years...three years and then I get REALLY afriad. Please god...do not let that be me. Only time will tell but emotionally I feel like I am running out of that as well...
Hopefully this weekend away will do me some good. Time to relax and laugh and have some fun with my mom and sister (whos birthday is today! Happy birthday sis!). More on that when I get back though. I probably will not be blogging until Monday because of that. Most likely no internet. Until then have a fabulous weekend...and stay away from doctors offices...no good can come of them! lol
Yesterday I went to the doctors office to get more pain medication, update him on my fertility treatments and plans and to do a follow up on the accident I was in. When I first walked in the door that should have been my first clue to run...run very far. The place was packed. And then I find out that their phones and internet was down which meant they had to do everything in writting. When I got there some people had already been waiting an hour and a half. So I sit down and wait...and wait...and WAIT some more. Then when my name is finally called I get walked as far as the hallway and the doctor rushes out of a room and says to call 911. Apparently someone was having a seizure or something while in the room with the doctor and now needed to get to the hospital ASAP. I fianlly get into the doctor, we talk, I get my referrals to a back specialist and pain medication and am on my way...THREE HOURS LATER. By this time I have already had to call and cancel my physio and massage appointments.
You think that is bad...oh wait...I have not even told you the worst part yet. The part where I burst into tears in the waiting room. Yup, totally did.
There was a girl/woman about my age sitting across from me very jittery, etc the whole time. She looked pretty nervous and was with someone who looked to be either family (aunt/older sister) or a friend. She goes in and comes out in tears. Shaking. And then the madness starts. She is standing in the middle of the waiting room crying saying...(wait for it....) "But I don't want a baby! This is awful..why is this happening to ME? This is the worst day of my life." Cue the tears on my part. Inside I am raging. I was very close to hitting her...but that would not have been very nice as she was pregnant...(haha). Here I am...waiting to talk to the doctor about my fertility treatments, the medication I am on for the accident and how I have to make a choice between that or trying, my updates on my cycles, etc and she has the NERVE to say being pregnant constituted the worst day of her life!? Thankfully I did not have to deal with it for very long before the person she was with ushered her out of the clinic. Even so..I think her words will haunt me for some time.
DH ending up coming home late from work and I got through telling him about my day fine until it hit that story and again I was in tears. Sometimes I really feel as if I am being punished...for what..I don't know...but some of the experiences I have had in the last couple months sure are not full of luck. This process is exhuasting and I do not know how much more I can take. I see girls who have been at this a year..two years...three years and then I get REALLY afriad. Please god...do not let that be me. Only time will tell but emotionally I feel like I am running out of that as well...
Hopefully this weekend away will do me some good. Time to relax and laugh and have some fun with my mom and sister (whos birthday is today! Happy birthday sis!). More on that when I get back though. I probably will not be blogging until Monday because of that. Most likely no internet. Until then have a fabulous weekend...and stay away from doctors offices...no good can come of them! lol
Thursday, 26 April 2012
Thursday Thoughts
This by far is the most odd AF since my MC. No cramping, no soreness/tenderness, no boob pain. I am 4 days in and still have not had a heavy flow day. The ONLY thing I have been is teary, lol. Seriously...I think every show I have watched in the last 4 days has made me tear up somehow. Lame.
Today is a busy busy day. I have physio, massage and a doctors appointment...and not to mention I have to start packing for my weekend away with my mom and sister. I ran out of pain killers Tuesday thus the doctors appointment. I cannot believe how much havoc this last car accident has brought on my body. Another thought I had was perhaps because of the pain killers I have not noticed my PMS symptoms. It is possible that is covering some of the major ones up.
I was a little bit bummed yesterday because I had started for applying for jobs and got a call back almost immediately for an interview booked today. Then yesterday I get a call from the company saying due to unforeseen circumstances they had to speed the process up and hired someone on Monday to start the next day and were cancelling my interview. It is not like I am in any hurry..I have not officially gotten a lay off notice but it would have been nice to play with some options.
I discovered yesterday that 3 or more cups of coffee a day start to damage sperm count for men. Not good. So DH and I sat down and had a talk. He works long hours and is up insanely early for work - 3:30AM. He NEEDS his coffee. We struck a little deal though. If he agrees to lower his coffee intake for the purpose of getting pregnant in the next two weeks I will make a valiant effect to ensure we are in bed by 8ishPM. That way he gets more sleep and does not have to rely on coffee. Now...because this is not permanent so I think I can handle two weeks of a toddlers bedtime, lol. Any longer then that and I think I may lose my mind. But marriage is full of compromises right? Especially in game of fertility.
Sometimes I really wonder what I may have to give up in order to hold that baby in my arms...
Today is a busy busy day. I have physio, massage and a doctors appointment...and not to mention I have to start packing for my weekend away with my mom and sister. I ran out of pain killers Tuesday thus the doctors appointment. I cannot believe how much havoc this last car accident has brought on my body. Another thought I had was perhaps because of the pain killers I have not noticed my PMS symptoms. It is possible that is covering some of the major ones up.
I was a little bit bummed yesterday because I had started for applying for jobs and got a call back almost immediately for an interview booked today. Then yesterday I get a call from the company saying due to unforeseen circumstances they had to speed the process up and hired someone on Monday to start the next day and were cancelling my interview. It is not like I am in any hurry..I have not officially gotten a lay off notice but it would have been nice to play with some options.
I discovered yesterday that 3 or more cups of coffee a day start to damage sperm count for men. Not good. So DH and I sat down and had a talk. He works long hours and is up insanely early for work - 3:30AM. He NEEDS his coffee. We struck a little deal though. If he agrees to lower his coffee intake for the purpose of getting pregnant in the next two weeks I will make a valiant effect to ensure we are in bed by 8ishPM. That way he gets more sleep and does not have to rely on coffee. Now...because this is not permanent so I think I can handle two weeks of a toddlers bedtime, lol. Any longer then that and I think I may lose my mind. But marriage is full of compromises right? Especially in game of fertility.
Sometimes I really wonder what I may have to give up in order to hold that baby in my arms...
Tuesday, 24 April 2012
Ready
Today I put on the wrong pants. I do not think you understand how big of a statement that is. I put on pants that had been way to snug and I could barely sit in them let alone breath and today...tada...they fit and I didn't even realise it until they were on! lol. Here I am SITTING DOWN at work and I cant believe it. I guess this challenge is really working out for me. Yay!
I had a moment of sadness/guilt the other day. I was talking to a good friend on facebook (one of the ones who is pregnant who I have been avoiding like the plague) and she basically came out and said she has been trying to give me space and she understands but she really misses me. Ugh, I'm a sucky friend. I just...well...it has been hard ok? And to be truthful it will not get easier until I am there. And I am hurt and upset by the fact that I know when I get pregnant again every day will be a struggle not to be thinking about the possibility of a miscarriage. So many people get to go through pregnancy without a care in the world...why could that not have been me? Life goes on but my heart has been left back in time...it is hanging back waiting and I seriously really do feel that hole.
So....is it May yet? DH called me last night and was like "Hey, we can try in like three weeks, right?!" and I was like. "Nope" and he was all sad and then I said, "TWO WEEKS!" lol. So body of mine...have you had enough time to recuperate?! I hope so because we are ready for a baby. Like...really really ready. Like NOW.
Get it? Got it? Good.
I had a moment of sadness/guilt the other day. I was talking to a good friend on facebook (one of the ones who is pregnant who I have been avoiding like the plague) and she basically came out and said she has been trying to give me space and she understands but she really misses me. Ugh, I'm a sucky friend. I just...well...it has been hard ok? And to be truthful it will not get easier until I am there. And I am hurt and upset by the fact that I know when I get pregnant again every day will be a struggle not to be thinking about the possibility of a miscarriage. So many people get to go through pregnancy without a care in the world...why could that not have been me? Life goes on but my heart has been left back in time...it is hanging back waiting and I seriously really do feel that hole.
So....is it May yet? DH called me last night and was like "Hey, we can try in like three weeks, right?!" and I was like. "Nope" and he was all sad and then I said, "TWO WEEKS!" lol. So body of mine...have you had enough time to recuperate?! I hope so because we are ready for a baby. Like...really really ready. Like NOW.
Get it? Got it? Good.
Monday, 23 April 2012
She's Baaaaccckkk!
Here is the truth. I am not totally bummed with getting AF. In fact it is good. I did a half dose of Prometrium Saturday and Sunday and and EXPECTED her to arrive today. I started spotting last night with some lovely cramps so it is really no surprise.
It is actually a good thing that we were not trying last month because the last time I was pregnant about a month in I got into a bad car accident and lost the baby a few weeks after. And now with this second accident that happened two weeks ago I am happy because my body would have AGAIN been so stressed out and in so much pain I do not think I could have emotionally handled another loss on top of that. I still have trouble walking and doing stairs so this all worked out for the better. Now this gives me a couple more weeks for my body to heal and start feeling less pain before it accepts a pregnancy.
I am literally only doing three things this cycle:
1. Prenatals
2. OPKs
3. Progesterone
(4). Pregnancy test
That last one doesn't count but I thought I would add it because you bet your butt I will be pulling those suckers out of the cabinet in three-ish weeks! lol
On the up side...because I am on the layoff list I have been putting my resume out there. I got a call for a job Friday but because I was at work I could not call back. Then by the time I could call back at the end of my work day they were closed. But...they called me again this morning...which I answered at my desk (bad girl) and we will be booking an interview for this week. Yay!
Also I got a job letter and we worked it out with our mortgage broker that we may be able to sign a six month rate approval so even if I get laid off if we sell the house within six months we are all good.
We also had our Realtor over on Sunday and decided we will be putting the house up for sale next Monday. The market is pretty much the same as last year...which is a total bummer but we have to sell this house...it is totally holding us back.
May could not come soon enough...so many possibly life changing events! Exciting!
It is actually a good thing that we were not trying last month because the last time I was pregnant about a month in I got into a bad car accident and lost the baby a few weeks after. And now with this second accident that happened two weeks ago I am happy because my body would have AGAIN been so stressed out and in so much pain I do not think I could have emotionally handled another loss on top of that. I still have trouble walking and doing stairs so this all worked out for the better. Now this gives me a couple more weeks for my body to heal and start feeling less pain before it accepts a pregnancy.
I am literally only doing three things this cycle:
1. Prenatals
2. OPKs
3. Progesterone
(4). Pregnancy test
That last one doesn't count but I thought I would add it because you bet your butt I will be pulling those suckers out of the cabinet in three-ish weeks! lol
On the up side...because I am on the layoff list I have been putting my resume out there. I got a call for a job Friday but because I was at work I could not call back. Then by the time I could call back at the end of my work day they were closed. But...they called me again this morning...which I answered at my desk (bad girl) and we will be booking an interview for this week. Yay!
Also I got a job letter and we worked it out with our mortgage broker that we may be able to sign a six month rate approval so even if I get laid off if we sell the house within six months we are all good.
We also had our Realtor over on Sunday and decided we will be putting the house up for sale next Monday. The market is pretty much the same as last year...which is a total bummer but we have to sell this house...it is totally holding us back.
May could not come soon enough...so many possibly life changing events! Exciting!
Friday, 20 April 2012
Thursday, 19 April 2012
Tick-Tock, Tick-Tock
It has speed up in a last week or so anticipating the fact that in about two and a half weeks it will be baby making time. The one thing that is frustrating right now is now I am on some pretty heavy pain meds due to the accident. The bummer is I am going to have to stop taking them soon if I want to get pregnant. I guess its sort of like a trade off. Be in pain and possibly get a baby or not be in pain and no baby. I think you can all pretty much assume which one I will be going for. Pain at this time is something I can handle...an empty uterus is not.
At this point I have been advised by my doctor and lawyer to only be working half days or every other day but they are not the ones who are going to pay my mortgage. Regardless of my state of being and pain levels bills still have to be paid. That is just a fact of life. I have been given an estimate of December to when negotiations with ICBC should start. Until then I will be focusing on getting better and hopefully I will be pretty much back to normal by the end of the year. If not..well...we will deal with that when the time comes.
AF is scheduled to arrive on Monday. I am crossing my fingers that I will have an early ovulation again. Hopefully my CD18 OV was not a fluke but a sign of my body actually regulating into some sort of "normal" fertility pattern. I am very thankful that my fertility specialist got me on meds right away and decided not to wait until I had a third MC which is what they normally have to do. (So wrong by the way...I do not agree with a anyone having to go through that THREE TIMES!!)
On to other news...I bought a car yesterday! Woohoo. I now am the proud owner of a Silver 2005 Honda Civic LXG. We bought it off some little old lady who got dementia and had to stop driving. She kept the car in AMAZING condition. I think we lucked out. On the way home from putting a deposit on the car on Tuesday DH looked at me and said "I never thought I would be a Honda owner". Lol..as if it was the most bizarre thing in the world. Silly man...his heart belongs to Toyota's.
Oh, and just for the stress record I found out I am on a layoff list for work. Grreeaatt. As if my blood pressure was not high enough...To top that...jobs here are slim to none. Believe me...I cruised craigslist and was slightly depressed. So here is to hoping my DH can knock me up good and this wont be an issue! Go team Go! lol
Monday, 16 April 2012
Broken Mirros, Black Cats & All That Jazz
Isn't car shopping supposed to be fun? Well, its not. Especially when you are under a time crunch. I am just finding it uber stressful. These last 6 months have been FILLED with sadness, frustration and bad luck. Did I break a mirror or something?!
This weekend we spent the whole time looking at vehicle possibilities and searching, driving and then finally being let down. It seems that people are not as honest as I would like them to be. I was seriously bewildered at the amount of scheming going on. We have had to put all our time after work into finding a car because I need to find something to drive ASAP. SO STRESSFUL!
Currently I am on my 8th day of progesterone. One think to note is I have found that my bbs are seriously sore when taking progesterone so I will have to not consider that as a pregnancy symptom the next time around. As if that is what I need...something to make figuring that out harder...
I am scheduled for AF to arrive on the 23rd. Which means hopefully that I will get a positive OPK around May 6th. DH and I are hoping that now since we have given my body a break that we will get lucky. If only the stress in my life would go away and I could relax for once!!
This weekend we spent the whole time looking at vehicle possibilities and searching, driving and then finally being let down. It seems that people are not as honest as I would like them to be. I was seriously bewildered at the amount of scheming going on. We have had to put all our time after work into finding a car because I need to find something to drive ASAP. SO STRESSFUL!
Currently I am on my 8th day of progesterone. One think to note is I have found that my bbs are seriously sore when taking progesterone so I will have to not consider that as a pregnancy symptom the next time around. As if that is what I need...something to make figuring that out harder...
I am scheduled for AF to arrive on the 23rd. Which means hopefully that I will get a positive OPK around May 6th. DH and I are hoping that now since we have given my body a break that we will get lucky. If only the stress in my life would go away and I could relax for once!!
Wednesday, 11 April 2012
Accident
Yesterday I was in ANOTHER car accident. That is two, count em' TWO in the last 5 months that were completely not my fault.
Yesterday I was in shock and couldn't believe that my poor car was gone. The car I had come to love and drive for years was no more. I was fine, the guy who hit me was fine but it was still sad. |
This morning I woke up feeling rather sore and shaken up. The feeling was almost like after you have worked out for the first time in a long while and you body is in recoup mode and event the slightest movement is uncomfortable.
Today I was driven to the rental car company, got a car, checked in at work and within an hour or so I will be heading out to see my doctor. Tomorrow is the dreaded appointment with ICBC. Ick. They are not fun to deal with.
On top of everything else now I have no car. And the worth of my car is very little even though it was in good condition and drove really well. This means DH and I have to start looking into a new vehicle. Cause we can afford that right? Not. Just when I was starting to think life was setttling down...
On to other news I am on my 6th day of the 90 Day Challenge. One thing I have noticed is more energy. Usually by 2 in the afternoon I could go for a nap and by 8 or 9PM I am ready to hit the pillow. This week through the day I just feel more awake. I also am enjoying how easy it is and how many options there are.
Day two of progesterone as well. Which reminds me I need to go fill my prescription!
Below is a picture of my poor car! Once I unhinged myself from the other vehicle the door was hanging off , pushed in, and the inside of the vehicle was totally mashed up. My dad took one look at it and said "write off". Total bummer.
Yesterday I was in shock and couldn't believe that my poor car was gone. The car I had come to love and drive for years was no more. I was fine, the guy who hit me was fine but it was still sad. |
This morning I woke up feeling rather sore and shaken up. The feeling was almost like after you have worked out for the first time in a long while and you body is in recoup mode and event the slightest movement is uncomfortable.
Today I was driven to the rental car company, got a car, checked in at work and within an hour or so I will be heading out to see my doctor. Tomorrow is the dreaded appointment with ICBC. Ick. They are not fun to deal with.
On top of everything else now I have no car. And the worth of my car is very little even though it was in good condition and drove really well. This means DH and I have to start looking into a new vehicle. Cause we can afford that right? Not. Just when I was starting to think life was setttling down...
On to other news I am on my 6th day of the 90 Day Challenge. One thing I have noticed is more energy. Usually by 2 in the afternoon I could go for a nap and by 8 or 9PM I am ready to hit the pillow. This week through the day I just feel more awake. I also am enjoying how easy it is and how many options there are.
Day two of progesterone as well. Which reminds me I need to go fill my prescription!
Below is a picture of my poor car! Once I unhinged myself from the other vehicle the door was hanging off , pushed in, and the inside of the vehicle was totally mashed up. My dad took one look at it and said "write off". Total bummer.
Tuesday, 10 April 2012
Success?
I can almost say with an absolutely guarantee that we managed NOT to get pregnant this cycle...unless some divine presence deems it completely necessary (and funny). I got my blaring positive OPK on Saturday and since DH and I have both been so sick we had not BD'd anywhere near that possible time to get pregnant. So I guess we were successful at not getting pregnant this month at planned.
When I logged on to fertility friend and it gave me my odds of being pregnant (pretty much non-existent) as "Low" because of the fact we had not DTD in the window allotted I had to laugh. At least we did something right this time around, lol.
I have started concentrating on my health and currently am almost one week complete on my 90 Day Challenge. Three pounds lighter! Yay! Go me! If I only lose 10 pounds before I get pregnant at least that is 10 pounds lost. And then the challenge will help me to develop healthy habits that will lead to a healthy pregnancy weight gain.
I am blogging about that too so if you want to follow that as well feel free:
http://luvthechallenge.blogspot.ca/
I finally figured out why I was so sick a week and a half ago...Tonsillitis. Bleh. I have some residual effects from it (sore throat, etc) Feeling more and more like myself with every passing day though. And it probably helps with all the proper nutrition I am getting now as well.
I started progesterone last night and feeling a little off today...perhaps it is slightly due to that as well. One thing I am glad about is with the progesterone that means now my AF will happen before I go away the last weekend of the month so I will not have to deal with her then...yippee! Small victory.
And also, if you have noticed I went from ovulating on CD31 to CD18...WOW! Big difference.
Can't wait to see what this next cycle brings!
When I logged on to fertility friend and it gave me my odds of being pregnant (pretty much non-existent) as "Low" because of the fact we had not DTD in the window allotted I had to laugh. At least we did something right this time around, lol.
I have started concentrating on my health and currently am almost one week complete on my 90 Day Challenge. Three pounds lighter! Yay! Go me! If I only lose 10 pounds before I get pregnant at least that is 10 pounds lost. And then the challenge will help me to develop healthy habits that will lead to a healthy pregnancy weight gain.
I am blogging about that too so if you want to follow that as well feel free:
http://luvthechallenge.blogspot.ca/
I finally figured out why I was so sick a week and a half ago...Tonsillitis. Bleh. I have some residual effects from it (sore throat, etc) Feeling more and more like myself with every passing day though. And it probably helps with all the proper nutrition I am getting now as well.
I started progesterone last night and feeling a little off today...perhaps it is slightly due to that as well. One thing I am glad about is with the progesterone that means now my AF will happen before I go away the last weekend of the month so I will not have to deal with her then...yippee! Small victory.
And also, if you have noticed I went from ovulating on CD31 to CD18...WOW! Big difference.
Can't wait to see what this next cycle brings!
Saturday, 7 April 2012
Called It!
CD17
I wrote down in my day timer that I guessed I would get a positive OPK on the 6th or 7th and today I got my positive! Yay! That means my cycles are regulating...hooray for the progesterone! *Cue the song... *Celebraaaaation...we're gonna celebrate and have a good time!*
DH was so cute yesterday he was like, "I would like to request to DTD tomorrow." lol. And I of course said sure...and now we know we can...but we have to be careful and find where we stored those rubbers! lol
I am just so happy that my cycles are getting back to normal. May conception here we come!
I wrote down in my day timer that I guessed I would get a positive OPK on the 6th or 7th and today I got my positive! Yay! That means my cycles are regulating...hooray for the progesterone! *Cue the song... *Celebraaaaation...we're gonna celebrate and have a good time!*
DH was so cute yesterday he was like, "I would like to request to DTD tomorrow." lol. And I of course said sure...and now we know we can...but we have to be careful and find where we stored those rubbers! lol
I am just so happy that my cycles are getting back to normal. May conception here we come!
Wednesday, 4 April 2012
Playing It Safe
DH and I will be using condoms from now until I ovulate. Yay? We made a decision and are sticking to it.
Since I have been through the mother of colds I have really not felt up to anything. We both haven't. I have had an abundance of wet and EWCM so I am not sure if that is a direct result of the progesterone on my system from last cycle or what.
Because I am not pregnant I start my 90 Day Challenge on Monday. That way if we get preggo mid May at least I will have some loss by then...hopefully...three of my friends have had amazing results and my MIL just decided to join me for the challenge. Should make for a fun 90 days!
DH and I will not be going up to the cabin for this long weekend and I think he is very sad...I for one am looking forward to cleaning the house and getting everything in tip top shape. The reason we are not going is his best friends son just broke his leg and "C" is concerned that she will not be able to keep a good eye on him there. Oh well...there is always another long weekend. I am still taking the full days off work though. Why not? I had to ask for it in advance months ago so I might as well enjoy the extra day. DH happens to be off those days as well so it will be fun just the two of us hanging out and chilling.
I wonder when I will ovulate this cycle...it will be really interesting to see what effect the progesterone had on this cycle!
Since I have been through the mother of colds I have really not felt up to anything. We both haven't. I have had an abundance of wet and EWCM so I am not sure if that is a direct result of the progesterone on my system from last cycle or what.
Because I am not pregnant I start my 90 Day Challenge on Monday. That way if we get preggo mid May at least I will have some loss by then...hopefully...three of my friends have had amazing results and my MIL just decided to join me for the challenge. Should make for a fun 90 days!
DH and I will not be going up to the cabin for this long weekend and I think he is very sad...I for one am looking forward to cleaning the house and getting everything in tip top shape. The reason we are not going is his best friends son just broke his leg and "C" is concerned that she will not be able to keep a good eye on him there. Oh well...there is always another long weekend. I am still taking the full days off work though. Why not? I had to ask for it in advance months ago so I might as well enjoy the extra day. DH happens to be off those days as well so it will be fun just the two of us hanging out and chilling.
I wonder when I will ovulate this cycle...it will be really interesting to see what effect the progesterone had on this cycle!
Tuesday, 3 April 2012
A Different Kind Of Journey
I am an observer. In high school that is pretty much how I stayed out of trouble. While some of my friends were making poor choices drinking, sleeping with boys, experimenting with drugs, shoplifting, etc, I was watching. I was waiting to see what kind of results or consequences were brought on and then formed what I liked to consider my own educated opinion. My parents were lucky. I made high honors in grades, was involved in sports and leadership groups, had an after school job and was put up as an example by teachers while still remaining on good terms with my peers. Granted, there are things that, oh man...if I knew what I knew now, would sure have made a difference... But nevertheless it is what it is and I was glad to get out of high school with very minor emotional bumps and bruises.
One of the things I wish I could have told myself is how so NOT fat I was. I look back at pictures and remember that I fit into a size 4 most times and was a size 6 for my grad dress....and yet...I felt fat all the time. Not enough to push myself into anything self sabotaging like an eating disorder but as a adolescent I sure remember those thoughts. Today I look back at those pictures and shake my head. What I wouldn't give to have a tiny body like that again. But years, surgeries, stress, a body that has prepared itself for pregnancy twice and other things have made that tiny body a thing of the past. When I met DH I had just recently broken up with my ex and had started running, eating meal replacement shakes and making healthier choices. I was at my prime. I do not think I ever looked better..I also had time as I was conveniently living at home and unemployed. Give me a break, it was over four years ago, I was only 22!
Before our wedding and about a year before that I started gaining back the weight. (Fabulous timing right?)But there was something wrong with my body. I felt sick every time I ate and had stomach pain and felt bloated pretty much 24/7 for about two years. In July about a month and a half before our wedding I had emergency surgery for a seriously infected and inflamed gall bladder. I had (according to the ultrasound tech) many stones documented every time I went into the ER in the past years but was never told about it until that last time when I was rushed into surgery because it was so bad. After being on bed rest for a week, about two months later DH and I started noticing a change. I was losing wight without doing anything different...my body was trying to get back to what it considered normal. Now however, I am stuck trying to lose those last 15 pounds. That is where the observations come in...
I am not one to fall into fads without some research. DH and I attended a Mona vie thing a while ago at the request of the friend and I had to do all I could to keep DH from getting up and walking out the door. I felt it was at least polite to sit through the presentation even though we knew it was not something we wanted to take part in. They were good friends and that is why we went. I have been looking into my options as to which route I wanted to take to lose that last bit for a little while. As DH not so kindly put last night I tend to start new things all the time that never seem to work. In my defence ...how do you know if they work if you do not try..? This leads me to my most recent research. A couple girls that I know (yes KNOW... Not a "friend of a friend". I know these girls, see them, etc) have lost a significant amount of weight on a new program. Two out of the three have lost just over 10 pounds in a month while the other has achieved a high weight loss for her body size/type as well (which is a smaller frame). Not only that but their husbands got involved after seeing that and now their husbands have started losing wight or bulking up (another option of the program). That is where the 90 Day Challenge and Body By Vi comes in. The ultimate reason why I am thinking of starting this is I did not want to start something that I would have to potentially stop in a month if I got pregnant. I needed it to be super safe even if I was pregnant. And this totally is. In fact one of the girls was pregnant while she was on the challenge and chose it for that specific reason as well.
The 90 Day Challenge and Body By Vi is basically a shake diet/lifestyle with exercise worked in. Now...it is not shakes that bother me. I can do shakes. It is the moment when I can taste the chalky/icky/blehness of the powder in the shakes that I get really turned off. Also...I love food. And the fact that I can continue to have whatever I want for dinner which will not change anything at home! I eat breakfast and lunch at work/alone anyways so DH will not have to suffer for my curiosity! lol. I lose weight and he still gets steak, potatoes, rice, and pasta cooked for him every night (and I get to eat it too!) Pretty much the only reason I am so open to this is I am seeing first hand the success of my friends and how much happier they are. How they not only FEEL better but look great as well.
As I have not tasted the product (which I hear makes the shakes taste like you are drinking an actual milkshake...yumm) yet I am going over to a friends house to try it out and then will go from there. I am cautiously optimistic. If those girls can make it happen and they are moms and career women with the same time/issues that I have why wouldn't it work for me?! Has anyone else done this? If so what were your experiences with it? If it is something I decide to do I will keep you updated and informed.
One of the things I wish I could have told myself is how so NOT fat I was. I look back at pictures and remember that I fit into a size 4 most times and was a size 6 for my grad dress....and yet...I felt fat all the time. Not enough to push myself into anything self sabotaging like an eating disorder but as a adolescent I sure remember those thoughts. Today I look back at those pictures and shake my head. What I wouldn't give to have a tiny body like that again. But years, surgeries, stress, a body that has prepared itself for pregnancy twice and other things have made that tiny body a thing of the past. When I met DH I had just recently broken up with my ex and had started running, eating meal replacement shakes and making healthier choices. I was at my prime. I do not think I ever looked better..I also had time as I was conveniently living at home and unemployed. Give me a break, it was over four years ago, I was only 22!
Before our wedding and about a year before that I started gaining back the weight. (Fabulous timing right?)But there was something wrong with my body. I felt sick every time I ate and had stomach pain and felt bloated pretty much 24/7 for about two years. In July about a month and a half before our wedding I had emergency surgery for a seriously infected and inflamed gall bladder. I had (according to the ultrasound tech) many stones documented every time I went into the ER in the past years but was never told about it until that last time when I was rushed into surgery because it was so bad. After being on bed rest for a week, about two months later DH and I started noticing a change. I was losing wight without doing anything different...my body was trying to get back to what it considered normal. Now however, I am stuck trying to lose those last 15 pounds. That is where the observations come in...
I am not one to fall into fads without some research. DH and I attended a Mona vie thing a while ago at the request of the friend and I had to do all I could to keep DH from getting up and walking out the door. I felt it was at least polite to sit through the presentation even though we knew it was not something we wanted to take part in. They were good friends and that is why we went. I have been looking into my options as to which route I wanted to take to lose that last bit for a little while. As DH not so kindly put last night I tend to start new things all the time that never seem to work. In my defence ...how do you know if they work if you do not try..? This leads me to my most recent research. A couple girls that I know (yes KNOW... Not a "friend of a friend". I know these girls, see them, etc) have lost a significant amount of weight on a new program. Two out of the three have lost just over 10 pounds in a month while the other has achieved a high weight loss for her body size/type as well (which is a smaller frame). Not only that but their husbands got involved after seeing that and now their husbands have started losing wight or bulking up (another option of the program). That is where the 90 Day Challenge and Body By Vi comes in. The ultimate reason why I am thinking of starting this is I did not want to start something that I would have to potentially stop in a month if I got pregnant. I needed it to be super safe even if I was pregnant. And this totally is. In fact one of the girls was pregnant while she was on the challenge and chose it for that specific reason as well.
The 90 Day Challenge and Body By Vi is basically a shake diet/lifestyle with exercise worked in. Now...it is not shakes that bother me. I can do shakes. It is the moment when I can taste the chalky/icky/blehness of the powder in the shakes that I get really turned off. Also...I love food. And the fact that I can continue to have whatever I want for dinner which will not change anything at home! I eat breakfast and lunch at work/alone anyways so DH will not have to suffer for my curiosity! lol. I lose weight and he still gets steak, potatoes, rice, and pasta cooked for him every night (and I get to eat it too!) Pretty much the only reason I am so open to this is I am seeing first hand the success of my friends and how much happier they are. How they not only FEEL better but look great as well.
As I have not tasted the product (which I hear makes the shakes taste like you are drinking an actual milkshake...yumm) yet I am going over to a friends house to try it out and then will go from there. I am cautiously optimistic. If those girls can make it happen and they are moms and career women with the same time/issues that I have why wouldn't it work for me?! Has anyone else done this? If so what were your experiences with it? If it is something I decide to do I will keep you updated and informed.
Monday, 2 April 2012
*Sniff*Sneeze*Cough*Sigh*
The plague has descended upon our household. Ok...well...maybe not the plague but I definitely feel like death warmed up. All last week I had major migraines on and off that made me nauseous and then friday morning...WHAM...it all hit me like a ton of bricks. I spent this weekend going through boxes of kleenex, extra strength Tylenol and cough syrup. It was not a pretty sight. I think that would have been fine except DH was sick too. So...basically nothing has gotten done for the last week. I managed to get a couple loads of laundry and some dishes done yesterday but that was it.
Because of the above my temps have been less then accurate. Although I pretty much have resigned myself to the fact that temps for as long as I will be taking progesterone will be something I can not count on as a fertility aid.
We were supposed to be going up to this cabin this long weekend but the friends we were going with are no longer going and now we feel we should probably stay home and work on the house. The painting process was pretty much finished this weekend...all there is left to do is two walls. Most of the rest is outdoor stuff....which takes nice weather...which...we have not been getting much of. In fact....it snowed saturday night. Not exactly landscaping weather...
Currently I am sitting at work dreaming of when I use to have sick pay. I no longer have that at this job and so here I sick hacking, sneezing and silently moaning. I have a feeling it is going to be a long 9 hours...Bummer.
Because of the above my temps have been less then accurate. Although I pretty much have resigned myself to the fact that temps for as long as I will be taking progesterone will be something I can not count on as a fertility aid.
We were supposed to be going up to this cabin this long weekend but the friends we were going with are no longer going and now we feel we should probably stay home and work on the house. The painting process was pretty much finished this weekend...all there is left to do is two walls. Most of the rest is outdoor stuff....which takes nice weather...which...we have not been getting much of. In fact....it snowed saturday night. Not exactly landscaping weather...
Currently I am sitting at work dreaming of when I use to have sick pay. I no longer have that at this job and so here I sick hacking, sneezing and silently moaning. I have a feeling it is going to be a long 9 hours...Bummer.
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